it's like trying to escape but ending up at the begininning

he texted me yesterday. he texted me cause he was bored, and again when he couldn't sleep, and then today when he was bored.
why does he come to me for stuff like that? Why can't he go to his friends, or somehting? Does he feel like i'll always be there? or what?

can he not let go of me?

these are the questions i have........

always,

allison

I realize.....

...that love is complex, confusing, complitcated, and can hurt, but you always still want more of it.
...that no matter how much hurt you get from love, you always come back to it
...that you come back to love because not only is it the biggest sorce for pain...but always for the greatest happiness you'll ever experience.
...that no matter what, NO MATTER WHAT, you always got to search for love....

becasue in the end, it WILL work out.
If everything is wrong, and bad, its not the end.

always have hope, always keep trying. It'll find you in the end....

and not always in ways you expect, and not always, rarely ever Hollywood storyline, so search for YOUR Mr. Right, not what Hollywood would say is your Mr. Right....


always,

allison

♥

sort of twisted, backasswards, and downside up

Well, I'm crying less now, every once in a while.
BUT GUESS WHAT??!?!?!?!?!?!?

Curtis, Sarah's borther, and Derek's cousin, likes me, and i sort of...well.....kind of like him too, but i really don't know why. It's weird becasue Sarah told me that everyone (her family, at least) suspected that that we liked each other, and stuff. Sort of weird.
And weirdly enough, she doesn't even care that i like him. I'm more weirded out than SHE is, but its only becasue i still just don't know....you know? And what's weirder, is that she was all freaked out when i liked derek, but for curtis? she doens't care, that she just remember....

Weird.

So twisted....

Always,

Allison

PS I think i'm in step four, but weirdly, step three didn't last TOO long