Saturday, December 6, 2008

one day i swear this will work


even if it takes forever and a day to happen.


always,


allison


PS i know that it might not happen now, but i know that one day, me and derek WILL work out, and we will get our chance to be together, and im willing to wait, becasue, well what else do i have to wait for?

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

A prayer

This is a prayer for everyone that has lost someone,

This is for everyone that have loved and lost,

And for those who thought is was too painful to love becasue they were afraid of lose.

Always, Allison

Dedicated to the Clark/Williamson family who lost their Great Great Aunt, Grandma D, and Grandma. I pray for you all....

Amazingly amazing

I found out Jesse (my step-cousin) likes me still. Yeah. And i requested him to be my friend on myspace, but it was before i knew. Yeah. Weird.

Whatever......

but yeah

always allison

Sunday, November 23, 2008

quite amazing

okay, so he called and it was a tad awkward, so we texted. He said that i was beautiful, and i said i didn't think i was, but he was like you are the most beautiful person hes ever seen. and said that he wanted to hold me in his arms...i was about to faint, but i was half asleep when he said it...

always,

allison

Saturday, November 22, 2008

sometimes i don't believe life is so easy

I cannot wait for Derek to text/call me, becasue he was 'cleaning' when i texted and yeah. Bleck. And I want to see twilight really badly, but i don't know if i will today. but i hecka want to...it is going to be like the best movie with all the love and kissing and stuff, im hoping i don't start like crying or something.

but he called me and sarah on my cell. it was good to HEAR from him. You know? God, i want to see him. i want 'aelkhrg;klsahndr;ogihsdlknb oh i don't know. im just ugh.

always,

allison

:/

i have to SKITTLE

i like the word, skittle...its fun... :/

me and sarah's joke now, is that skittle is a weird word, and it kind of sounds like you have to pee, so we say, 'I have to skittle', and 'Did you have to skittle?' all in this weird german accent...

hilarous!!

always,

allison

Friday, November 21, 2008

jersey

He's going to give me his football jersey!!!!!
:)

i am excited....

He also says that he really wants to kiss me, but he says hes nervous... :)

Always,

Allison

Sunday, November 9, 2008

urg

im still waiting for him to text me before i go!!!!!!!!!!!!! And its frustrating because chey just texted me, and i got all excited thinking 'Oh! its him!' and then i was mad, finding out it was her. kjshgpl;aoek]th'kl;djng'oih

grrr.

When is he going to get back?!?!?!?!?!

always,

allison

perfect

Wow. This is so crazy. I wonder if i should even tell Sarah, besides, im not even sure how i'm going to write this down. Its so crazy. How could someone be so...........i don't know, perfect, i guess, but its not a good enough word, you know?

He's just so ;alshg;djkfnbakdfjhbgkadfgkjabhdkjb yeah, well.....

always,

allison

Saturday, November 8, 2008

if this isn't true love then i don't know what is

He said he didn't deserve me, that i was perfect, and beuatiful, and that he loves me. He is so perfect. I tell him that, and that he tells me that he really wants to me, and really wants to kiss me. I love him so much, its crazy...
and if sarah reads this, please delete history, okay? Don't be cruel....

always,

allison

How could he be so absolutly 100% perfect?

I don't even know what to do anymore, I cant stand not seeing him anymore. I wish he did. What should i do?

I love you! ♥

Thursday, November 6, 2008

three cheers for Archie

Derek asked me what my favorite song was and i told him Crush by David Archuleta......yes THE song.

so he goes and listens to it, and this is what happens:

he says he liked it, and i tell him it was the song i listened to when i was thinking about him, and he was like, awwww, really? and he said that when he was listening to it, he was thinking of me.....

yea!!

so go David Archuleta!!

always,

allison

if i died right now, i would die happy

I'm not going to say, a LOT has happened, no, that's not enough, its more like, EVERYTHING happened. Even though hes not here, and i haven't seen him, i've had almost every conversation ive ever sat in my room and dreamed about!! AND MORE!! Its so crazy to get everything that deep inside you truly never thought would happen. Sure i had hope, but it was fading. It was REALLY fading...


but i love him so much, and i know he loves me just as much... ♥

this is to Derek:

to every sentence, word, paragraph, poem or song that i wrote that had you in mind....

to every shiver you gave me just when you said hello

and to every time i saw you, and you were only looking at me....

my hearts yours,

if you take it ill be happy,

and if you don't,

i'll still love you with all the little peices.

I LOVE YOU. ♥


always,

allison

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

EEEEEEEPPPPP

omgomgomg!!

he said he missed me and that he dreads every moment we aren't together!!!1

and he called me breathtakingly gorgeous!!!


eep!!

Sunday, September 28, 2008

never ends today

He did it. He finally did it. He really did. He asked me out. Allison Galbreath has a boyfriend. I'm am still in shock.

he's going back to LA. AKJhgfp;uiljrndgajk;dsn damnit...

Always,

Allison

I ♥ my BOYFRINED, Derek J. Clark :D

Friday, September 26, 2008

i DoN't ThInK mY hEaRt CaN tAkE iT aNyMoRe

he said he was coming down this weekend. i know we probably won't go out, but that's okay. idk why but i'm just, tired, you know? i was ready, SO ready. I need to see him again, not in picture, i need to look in his eyes again. i really do, cause i think im over analysing everything, and i just need to talk to him in PERSON!!!!!

Songs i listen to when i want to think of Derek.....

*Goodbye by Miley Cyrus
*Everywhere by Michelle Branch
**********Crush by David Archuletta.

its really the last one...as you can tell.... :)

always,

allison

ps. i am texting him right now..... :O

confusion, ended

ok, so the second half, after Erik Daneils, is from today, the 26th...ok?

sorry, i forgot to post, and i thought that i would just add, and explain, but forgot, so im doing it now...

always,

allison...

aka Allison the Libraian

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

I am like, FREAKING out, here!

wow, right now, obviously, I'm at my dad's and he still hasn't even opened the text yet, becasue it would have said 'delivered', but it doesn't. AND on myspace, he was all, 'do you wanna know somethin?"

and i'm thinking: WHAT THE HELL IS IT?!!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!

also, Erik Daneils, i saw him today, and aI realized this:

they are exactly the same....


then he answers and he's all 'if i hadn't had to move, i would have asked you out,"

and i go, 'you wanna know something? if you had asked me out, i would have sais yes...'

AND this is me WAITING for him to answer him everytime, because we haven't caught eachother on line!!!!!!!


and then i put as me status thing that i was speachless, and as my mood frustrated, and he asks me why i am frustrated and speachless, and i go 'becasue you leave me speachless and frusrated, but mostly speachless.' and now i'm waiting for him to respond!!!!!!!


GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR



what am i going to do?!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

a dreamer

i'm a dreamer....

a wisher.....

a lover...

I hate

I lie

I cheat

Sometimes I wish for people to die

And sometimes i wish for hurt

I love to dance

I love to sing.......


when i dream i dream of you,

when i wish i wish to see you,

when i love i love your eyes,

when i hate i hate when you leave,

when i lie i lie about not hurting when your gone,

when i cheat i cheat to lose for you,

when i wish for death, i wish for the other girls to die,

When i wish for hurt, i wish to hurt so i know i feel

when i dance, i dance with you,

when i sing, i sing for you,

but when i look at you, i know it's true,

I'm in love with you.

hErE wE gO aGaIn....

yeah, i sent it. And he's in Stockton. :)

but not for long, since it is jus the weekend, and he is probably going back today....grrr....

:(

why?!?!?!?!?!?!?

You know what i wish? To see him again. It's almost been a WHOLE year since i've SEEN him in PERSON, not picture. I hate this. i want to see him again, goshdarnit!!


please help me lordie, please.


always,

Allison ♥

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

even weirder from all those other times

Derek sent me this like text that was a FW, and it was like something about if you get it back 1-3 times you are hot, 4-6 is like sexy and 7-12 is your ass is mine....it was weird. I haven't done anything about it yet.

Also, his number, for football, is 63, so can you guess what my favorite number is?

Always,

allison

I ♥ #63

Thursday, August 28, 2008

perceptive!!

so, yea, I sign onto myspace, right? and he is totally on! So i send him a message, he responded, then i sesponded, but I haven't heard back from him for like 15 min!!

Crazy....

GOD! Why won't he answer???

I think it's cause his computer. Sarah says it gets stuck sometimes...

i hope so....

always,

allison

never mind!! he jus wrote me like three hella long paragraphs!!

weirdly weirdnesss

I was just reading my last post, and it was really kind of funny....it was weird....

anyways, so I'll write if something happens:

Always,

allison

Friday, August 15, 2008

SOEHUGS:IOHTIOQHE:OJHASLFIJHEKSL

OMIGAWD! LAST NIGHT ME AND DEREK WERE TALKING AND I HAD POSTED A PICTURE OF ME AND MY NEW COUSIN NATALIE ROSE, AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT IT....THEN HE SAID SOMETHING LIKE 'YEA SHES CUTE, JUS LIKE HER COUSIN', AND I AM TOTALLY FREAKING OUT, RIGHT?
BUT AFTER A LOT OF CINSIDERATION I GO 'HAHAHA :D THANKS, SO R U,' AND HE SEEMED SURPRISED BECASUE WE WERE HAVING MULITPLE CONVERSATIONS, AND HE ANSWERED THAT ONE LAST. I COULDN'T BREATH, MY HANDS WERE SHAKING AND MY HEART WAS BEATING REALLY FAST.
THEN HE COMES BACK AND SAYS, 'AWWW, YOU MADE ME SMILE,' AND SO I AM SMILING TOO, SO I GO, 'FUNNY, YOU DO THE SAME THING,' AND HE GOES, 'IM GLAD I CAN MAKE YOU SMILE,'

HE SAID HE HAD TO GO AFTER THAT, BUT YEAH....

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

always,

Allison

Saturday, August 2, 2008

texting scare

soo...heres what happened...i was texting Derek and Sarah last night, right? And i checked my phone, and it said i had 201 texts total. and so i was like OMG! and i thought that it was all from that night because i thought it renewed the first of every month...but it turns out it doesn't for me, but anyway, so i was totally freaking out, and when i found out, i feel so much better. I thought that i had to live a month without texting!!!

anyways, so Mary-kay and Jenny keep wanting me to invite Sarah and Derek over to my house for like a barabeque and crap, but i would toatally DIE! if i did....

Always,

allison

Friday, August 1, 2008

whoa

i can' not believe it, sarah and derek were both texting me, and saying who knows what....but he was all 'i herd you and her were making fun of me,' so after a few texts about making fun of him more, i told him, and so yea. we didn't make plans, but im pretty sure sarah will call tomarrow..... :) im so excited, you don't even know...

even though i am SO tried, i am so giddy and excited, it's so weird! i care SO much about what i should say, and how he'll respond, its not even funny...

god, i have it bad....

and my father and stepmother keep calling him my boyfrined, and pretty much everyone at dad's house...it's quite sad, becasue, technically, he hasn't asked me out yet!!!! scumbag

always,

allison

i heart you DJ

my heart is beating out of my chest

i am talking to him right now, and sarah, as they are sitting right next to eachother.... :) can you belive it? its so weird, but maybe we'll make plans for tomarrow!! i hope so!!

:)

always,

Allison

THE SKY IS FALLING!!!!!!!

help! he's in stockton!! i cant believe it! But, i told him i was going to see The Dark Night, and he was all 'i so wanna see that movie'. it made me feel so bad because i basiclly denied him!! i feel so bad!! anyways, so i was thinking:

that plan could happen. It could finally be here this weekend!! i can't believe it....all that waiting and wishing, and it could be tomarrow!!!!!!!!! can you believe that?

it's freakin crazy.

i hope i didn't screw everything up, though..........

always,

allison aka a girl confused

SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT

omg, he myspaced me back, and said he was coming down this weekend, and Britteny was coming down next!! can you believe it? I was sort of right!!

wow, i hope Sarah calls!!

WOW!!!!

i am so happy, you don't even know!!

Always,

Allison...

oh god, what am i going to do?!?

Urban Dictionary

so, i went on www.urbandictionary.com and typed in peoples names. Aparently, Allison means some smart, pretty, upper class person, and Derek, meant "someone you CANNOT get off your mind because he is always so funny and cute. A Derek is a hotty with a killer body." i am serious, thats right out of the page. and i was all: OMG! i know that's so true....i couldn't believe it....oh, and i also typed in galbreath, and it said 'hoebag' so does that mean i am an upper-class hoe bag?

Wow.....

Anyways, it was pretty cool....

always,

Allison aka the upper class hoebag

Thursday, July 31, 2008

dAnG fLaBit

he better damn be here, otherwise ill be mad at him for not answering me....i mean, why wouldn't he have answered? come on!!
i know i am paranoid.
but why didn't sarah call me?!?
think about this:

either way, someone is not answering me!!

Sarah, isn't telling me he is here, or he ISN'T here, and jus is not answering me..............


god i hope sarah's jus being a jerk and not telling me, dude, i can forgive Sarah, but ill go completely crazy if HE'S ignoring me....let me tell you....

anyways, so i guess that's it for now...

Always,

Allison <3

JUST MAYBE

maybe, maybe, maybe he is in stockton!! I say this becasue he goes on his myspace everynight around the same time, but he didn't go on at all last night....and neither did his sister, Britaney, so guess what that means?

HE IS maybe IN STOCKTON!!

but i keep thinking: wouldn't sarah of called me? I mean, if he was in stockton? Wouldn't she? I sure hope she would've but maybe she doesn't know what house i'm at, or maybe she's busy or something.

whatever the reason she didn't call, i sure hope he's here... :-)

Please help me, lord!!

Always,

allison

Sunday, July 6, 2008

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOW

ok, so last night, i was talking to Brittany, and we jus talked. It was awesome. i mean, as sarah would say, she is going to be my future sister (in law).... :)

anyways i can't stop thinking about the song that was on his myspace. I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!! i just know that it's about me. I mean, its too perfect not to be. and guess why else it has to be me it's because he texted me today, on his phone, which means, I'M ON HIS PHONE like he is on mine!!!!!!!!

YAY!

but you know what sarah would say, he was probably jus trying to make me think that he cares or that he was trying to make it seem like something different that would sink my heart, instead of what i am thinking.

But you know. that's ok, she doesn't know what happens when i looked into his eyes and see him looking back. I mean she jus doesn't know, right?

well, it doesn't matter what sarah says, because I know what I felt and she's jus trying to ignore me becasuse it's awkward for her. I mean, i would be totally the same way if it was johnathon or something....come on....eww.......

well, ill write next time...

always,

allison

Saturday, July 5, 2008

Weird

You know what's strange, I don't remeber making this one. I seriously don't....god. I keep waiting for this guy to sign on in myspace. It's rediculous. I know. I've already told myself that a million times already today. So it's not like you have to tell me. I know that I am a goof. and i should give up trying to wait, i really should, but i just can't. you wouldn't unmderstand. there's something about him....something, i guess, worth waiting for, and it's like even though we are nothing alike, and sometimes I feel we are total opposite, I feel like we are somehow meant to be. But who am i kidding. As the adults say: it's jus teen love, right? It doesn't count, right?

But I think it does. I think it's something that the ADULTS can't understand. I think that when you are young your hearts open more. I think that as you get older, with experience, your hearts starts to close. And it's not like you can help it, but I jus think that when you are younger, you are more open to finding your 'true love', but as they say, how could you know without ecperience.

but i have an answer for that too. I think that no matter if you are 15 or 51, when you find that person, you'll know the moment you look in there eyes, no matter if you think that you hate them or something. Your heart will know. and you might not realize it at the time, but you are so lucky to have found something that people spend their whole life searching for, and never finding. So next time you are in love, embrace every minute, hold every second to it's fullest, and remeber, all the other 6 billion people out there aren't as lucky as you to have found the person right there, looking into your eyes.

embrace heartache, you know why? Becasue without it, pleasure is nothing? How would we know what it was?

Exactly. you wou-

omg, his sister jus signed on, g2g...


mouZer

Saturday, June 21, 2008

White Flag from Ship Bored

Okay, okay, yes, I have made a million of these...sorry. I know that I haven't kept with one, and this probably won't be the last.

Yeah...

Allison