I've just been thinking about stuff. Like well, i don't really want to say it. Ugh. This is crazy. I don't even know why i'm writing this right now. You know, if he typed in the right adress, he could seriously just read everything, which is CRAZY.
Great, now I'm worried...lol, well not really laughing, more like a tense giggle. TG. that's more of what i mean when i write lol.
Anyways. i just....there are so many things i guess. i mean, im finally just letting go and letting things happen. i know that doesn't make any sense, but if you think about it, it really really does. im finally learning-and not just the saying, but its MEANING-'let go, let flow'. things happen for a reason, and im going to embrace it.
its so weird to me to think that i guess anyone could just read this. that would be rude if they knew me. even though im putting everything out on the internet to read for the whole freaking world, but here it is. have at it..........
anyways-agai-like i was saying, there are just so many things i could say. and i just wish, i just wish i knew. i wish i DID know what was going to happen, what others were thinking...it sure would make life a whole lot easier if i did.
i read Sarah's blog. she said that for some reason i don't think he could EVER like me....and she's right, but the reason is, is i just don't want to loose him. and so, i think about what if i DID and it scares me. i don't know what'd id freaking do, which scares me even more.
but the thing im mostly worried about is, sure he likes me, but im scared not as much as i obvously like him. i even turn to stupid chance to tell answer the questions only he could obvously answer.
but mostly......what will i do??????????
let go.....let flow.....
always,
allison <3
"when you love someone, you can tell.....when you're IN love with someone....everyone else can tell"
pretty much the quote of this whole damned blog. ;)
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